(Monk and the wind, location at KMC Brazil just outside Sao Paulo October 2010)
It is nearly 80 degrees today in my flowery front garden located in sunny Manhattan Beach Ca.. The bee's have already come and gone. I know this because when I walked the dogs earlier this morning there were so many bees on the flowers it sounded like an entire hive had arrived in the flowers to orchestrate pollination. It was an awesome event! What looked to be hundred's of bees working in the front garden creating a real buzz. From my own side I'm thankful for their hard work because I get to reap the fruits of their labor. I have already spotted volunteer lavender, rosemary, and chive! This is not from me seeding but the bee's cross pollinating. I'm so happy for them to have the front garden as a food source because they in turn feed me in beautiful ways... They are my dharma and that is the best way to describe my relationship with the bee's. I watch and learn from them. I know that I fear them because when one landed on my arm the other day, I watched it for a moment and then panicked when I saw it's abdomen start to pump up and down! I thought this meant that it was getting ready to sting me so I shooed it off my arm out of fear of the pain the sting might cause me... and unnecessary loss of bee life. Haha! Funny that I did not see it the other way around! I worried for my own well being first and then the bee... tsk tsk! I must keep practicing.
This made me question myself, am I really am a good observer or am I still coloring the world with the crayons from my coloring box? Perhaps a little of both. I do realize that I need to work on this. As I observe this year winding down I become increasingly aware that yet another new year is fast on 2010's heals.
My goal for 2011 is just to observe. Even if all I can do is take in are simple snap shots of life then so be it! I don't want to judge or feel the need to react. My hope is to embody the intention of compassion, renunciation, and correct Buddhist view- only then will I be securely on the path of becoming a wish fulfilling jewel